Sunday, November 25, 2012

Hear my Heart today

In times like this, I want to feel your presence
Good or Bad days, I want to sing you praise
In this life, none can take your place
Your love abounds that amaze me always

 You’re so faithful and just
You comfort me with such loving hands,
Wonderful ways, Mighty power,
Yes you hear my heart today

You have met my needs all my life
A humble heart that cries,
Thank you God, peace in my past
Glorious days, seized all worries away

You’re so faithful and just
You comfort me with such loving hands,
Wonderful ways, Mighty power,
Yes you hear my heart today

Monday, September 17, 2012

Prone to worry?

Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable, if there is any excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things.-Philippians 4:8 (ESV)

Thoughts on Today’s Verse

So many are the worries that can blight our lives, and the Lord knows that every concern starts with a single thought. How impossible to cast our burdens on Him, when our minds are drowned with destructive thinking. If only we could train our hearts to take each thought captive by handing to Him our cares and concerns, the moment they’re conceived in our minds.  In these final words of Paul to His children in Philippi, he encourages them towards the ‘right-thinking‘ that nestles in the heart of God’s Word. Not the humanistic  dead, ‘positive-thinking‘ philosophy of the world, that is trained on self,  but the spiritual, living,  ‘righteous-thinking‘, that emanate from our heavenly Lord. For all that is true and honest, all that is just and pure, all that is lovely  and gracious, all that is excellent and deserving of praise – all that is good, has its foundation upon Jesus.
For Jesus is the true and living way, Jesus is the faithful servant, Jesus is One Who is clothed in righteousness and He alone is worthy of praise. As each worry surfaces to blight our daily walk – let us take that thought immediately to Lord, turning the eyes of our heart upon Him.

My Prayer

Father, I am so prone to worry, which so quickly arrests my thoughts and shatters the perfect peace of Christ in my heart. It is my desire to turn my thoughts to you moment by moment, and I pray that Your Holy Spirit will help to guide me into right-thinking, which keeps the Lord Jesus at the center of my mind. I ask this in His precious name,


But grow in the grace and knowledge of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. To him be glory both now and forever! Amen.-2 Peter 3:18 (NIV)

Thoughts on Today’s Verse

The grace of God spills over the pages of Paul’s epistles like so many sparkling jewels, and in the final words of this joyous letter, we as believers are extorted and encouraged to grow in the grace that has been so freely bestowed on all who believe in His free gift of salvation.  We are to dig our roots down into the depths of His Word and we are to reach out into the farthest extremities of His grace, which are higher than the heavens and deeper that the ocean depths. We are to grow and expand – we are to mature and ripen – we are to develop and flourish as day by day the Holy Spirit works within, to conform us into the image of His dear Son, removing every trace of prideful-self and vanity’s flesh. We are to grow in every facet of grace and virtue,  faith and love, holiness and understanding – wisdom and obedience, but there’s more:
We are to grow in the knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ. This must be the pinnacle of God grace, that we increase in our knowing HIM. Intimately knowing Christ is what the aged Paul, in His final days of life, sought with every fiber of His being – and this intimate and personal relationship is what each of us must earnestly peruse for He, is indeed All in all.  To him be glory both now and for ever. Amen.

My Prayer

Father, that I may know Jesus and grow in grace day by day. AMEN

Monday, August 27, 2012

The Most Glorious Wedding of All

If you’re single, don’t waste your life waiting for a man, or if you’re married, don’t wait for your man to change before you begin living out your faith. I know it is hard to imagine what it will be like the day Jesus, our true Prince, comes to rescue us from this world, so I invite you to wrap your heart around this final story. Let your heart dream as you read about the love of your life and your “heavenly wedding day,” when your Prince (our Lord) will come to rescue you from this world.
Imagine with me the most glorious wedding day of all. . . .
The bride-to-be stands motionless, staring in the mirror for what seems like an eternity. Her hair and makeup are like works of art, and her dress is pure and white as snow. Never before has she imagined she would feel so treasured by her Lord as she twirls around her dressing room with joy, excitedly waiting for the ceremony to begin. She begins to reflect on her life and the people God had placed in her path while she was walking on earth.
If only she had known that this dream would become reality when her Prince came. Then she would have made sure everyone she met know about the open-ended invitation from her Savior to experience His eternal love. She begins to weep as she realizes that, while waiting for a “happily ever after,” she had lost sight of the coming grand finale of her everlasting life. In her search for a man to love her, she had forgotten to embrace the one true Prince who gave Himself for her to experience this day.
It hits her suddenly like a stabbing jolt of reality: He had done everything to prepare for this day. He had done everything to woo her, to bless her, to capture her heart, to rescue her . . . and she had done nothing! She has nothing to offer Him. No gifts. No guests. She spent her life worrying about all the wrong things and living for all the wrong reasons. The depth of her regret is so intense that she grabs the hem of her gown and turns, ready to run away.
But just then she hears the sound of the most beautiful music she has ever heard. The wedding march has begun! Then large double doors open into the most incredibly decorated sanctuary she has ever seen. She sees angels singing glory to the Lord. She hesitantly walks down the aisle of the glorious sanctuary as she fights to believe this could really be happening. She feels so undeserving of such a celebration, yet she cannot help but absorb the indescribable beauty surrounding her. Then, suddenly, everything around her seems to blur as she catches sight of her Savior for the first time.
He looks so tender and loving, standing there at the end of the aisle, patiently waiting for His bride to approach. There are no bridesmaids or groomsmen, only her Groom and what appears to be an amazing number of wedding presents. She had heard that her Prince had prepared many gifts for His bride, but this is truly beyond what she could have imagined.
An intense flood of emotion overflows in her heart. As she approaches her Groom—her Prince—she feels her heart beating fast and her face becoming flush with embarrassment for not living a better life for Him. Just as she is ready to run, her eyes meet His.
She sees something in His loving eyes that is more intense than her shame, more powerful than her guilt. This “something” is stronger than anything she has ever felt before. His presence is irresistible, and no emotion can keep her from walking toward Him. As she keeps her eyes fixed on His, her shame begins to melt away, and the closer she gets to her Lord, the more sure she is that the look on His face is one of pure love, the kind of love that says,
You are Mine, My beloved bride, and nothing you have ever said or done could diminish My never-ending love for you.”
As she steps up to stand next to her Groom, every negative emotion loosens its grip on her and departs forever. Every pain that has burrowed its way into her soul disappears. As they stand there face-to-face, she realizes that she has always been loved, and for the first time she really experiences His love the way He wants her to. The Prince smiles at her and reaches out His hand and gently wipes away the tears from her cheek. He then wraps His loving arms around her and whispers, “You will never cry again, My love. Welcome home.”
When we know Jesus as our Savior, then He is our Prince, we are His bride, and this story is about the majestic day of His return. Let’s not wait; let’s get ready for our Prince and live our lives in a way that tells the world we are loved. We have nothing to lose in this life if we say “I do” and “I will” follow the Prince who gave His life for me. If we believe the Word of God and embrace eternity, it becomes effortless to surrender our hearts to His love and His will. He is coming to rescue us; the question is, will we be ready?
I’m not sure what you’ve walked through or who holds the key to your heart, but if you will hand that key to the Lord, you will find the safe place you’re longing for. Your security will no longer be based on others’ actions. Even those who love you the most don’t know how to love you the way your Lord does. Just listen to His promise in Revelation 21:4:
He will wipe every tear from their eyes, and there will be no more death or sorrow or crying or pain. All these things are gone forever.”

 by: Featured guest

Saturday, August 4, 2012

Long Distance Relationship

Challenging and difficult, though they may not be what we want to hear, are the words that best describe long distance relationships. Keep in mind however, that the words are challenging and difficult, not impossible. Many people choose to give a long distance relationship a try, with the constant curiosity if it was the right decision to make and if it even stands a chance. The truth is, a long distance relationship has just as much a chance of succeeding as any other relationship!
Long Distance Relationships share the same facts as an average relationship. It involves two people who share an interest in each other's lives, care for one another and of course have a love for each other that they hope will only continue to grow. On the other hand, a long distance relationship does have its differences as well. It takes away your ability to see each other on a frequent note, as well as the choice of being intimate whenever you desire, not to mention that there would be major trust required. Being unable to spend time together in a physical presence makes it harder to hang on to, but does not spell out doom for your relationship.
The first step is to make an agreement of what your expectations are in the relationship and how much of a commitment you are willing to give and receive. If the two of you decide to be monogamous, then it is clear that neither of you will be dating anyone else as long as your romantic relationship exists. Being clear about what you both want is extremely important, especially in a long distance relationship, in order to prevent future misunderstandings and mistakes. Do not feel afraid to tell your partner what you really need and want from him or her, you deserve the chance to speak from your heart and he or she deserves to know the truth and judge whether they can give it to you.
Trust is a major necessity if you wish to have your relationship from a distance. Without trust and honesty, the relationship is in for danger and unsuccessfulness, just as it would be any other relationship. By accepting the challenge of a long distance relationship, you also accepted the fact that you will have to have the trust and faith that your partner will not be seeing anyone else as promised. Being paranoid and accusing will only grow doubts, insecurity and tension between you and none of those three will help the relationship survive successfully.

by:Love sessions 

Sunday, July 29, 2012

Oh! The Wedding

One of our church members invited us THE TENTMAKERS (will post about TM soon-pinky promise) on their special day Kat & Anderson's Wedding. I am the veil bearer and they want me to sing a special song for them LORD I OFFER MY LIFE the song is easy to sing and can be sung with low notes. I asked my friend Gary to play the guitar for me because I want it on acoustic version. So we practiced like half day and inside the car while were driving from Abu dhabi to Al sharjah United Arab Emirates (the wedding area) then that's it, Trying to convince ourselves that we are ready. Upon arrival everyone's busy fitting their clothes and preparing for each individual part. While me, waiting for a miracle and says Hey! Can anyone help me…And Gary's chasing me- telling me that he's nervous. Yeah share it with me Gary. I feel it too, sniff*. And so after the nerve cracking isle walk, pinning of the Bride's veil. The officiating Pastor calls for a SPECIAL SONG NUMBER to be rendered by yeah sing with me. And it was terrible, I feel awful, I can’t even open my mouth, Gary started with wrong note. So I went ______________________ yes blank. But still the show must go on. I want to cast a spell (A spell to forget) to all the guests, especially to the newlywed.

whistling in the rain
(my attire during the wedding)

Wednesday, July 25, 2012


A migraine is a common type of headache that may occur with symptoms such as nausea, vomiting, or sensitivity to light. In many people, a throbbing pain is felt only on one side of the head.
Some people who get migraines have warning symptoms, called an aura, before the actual headache begins. An aura is a group of symptoms, including vision disturbances that are a warning sign that a bad headache is coming.
Causes, incidence, and risk factors
 A migraine is caused by abnormal brain activity, which can be triggered by a number of factors. However, the exact chain of events remains unclear. Today, most medical experts believe the attack begins in the brain, and involves nerve pathways and chemicals. The changes affect blood flow in the brain and surrounding tissues.
Alcohol, stress and anxiety, certain odors or perfumes, loud noises or bright lights, and smoking may trigger a migraine.
 Migraine attacks may also be triggered by:
·         Caffeine withdrawal
·         Changes in hormone levels during a woman's menstrual cycle or with the use of birth control pills
·         Changes in sleep patterns
·         Exercise or other physical stress
·         Missed meals
·         Smoking or exposure to smoke
Migraine headaches can be triggered by certain foods. The most common are:
·         Any processed, fermented, pickled, or marinated foods, as well as foods that contain monosodium glutamate (MSG)
·         Baked goods, chocolate, nuts, peanut butter, and dairy products
·         Foods containing tyramine, which includes red wine, aged cheese, smoked fish, chicken livers, figs, and certain beans
·         Fruits (avocado, banana, citrus fruit)
·         Meats containing nitrates (bacon, hot dogs, salami, cured meats)
·         Onions
This list may not include all triggers.
Vision disturbances, or aura, are considered a "warning sign" that a migraine is coming. The aura occurs in both eyes and may involve any or all of the following:
·         A temporary blind spot
·         Blurred vision
·         Eye pain
·         Seeing stars or zigzag lines
·         Tunnel vision
Other warning signs include yawning, difficulty concentrating, nausea, and trouble finding the right words.
Not every person with migraines has an aura. Those who do usually develop one about 10 - 15 minutes before the headache. However, an aura may occur just a few minutes to 24 hours beforehand. A headache may not always follow an aura.
Migraine headaches can be dull or severe. The pain may be felt behind the eye or in the back of the head and neck. For many patients, the headaches start on the same side each time. The headaches usually:
·         Feel throbbing, pounding, or pulsating
·         Are worse on one side of the head
·         Start as a dull ache and get worse within minutes to hours
·         Last 6 to 48 hours
Other symptoms that may occur with the headache include:
·         Chills
·         Increased urination
·         Fatigue
·         Loss of appetite
·         Nausea and vomiting
·         Numbness, tingling, or weakness
·         Problems concentrating, trouble finding words
·         Sensitivity to light or sound
·         Sweating
Symptoms may linger even after the migraine has gone away. Patients with migraine sometimes call this a migraine "hangover." Symptoms can include:
·         Feeling mentally dull, like you’re thinking is not clear or sharp
·         Increased need for sleep
·         Neck pain
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You might wonder why I’m posting this article so here’s the story, (but Oh! I can’t even type write now- I’m experiencing “hangover” from previous attack) so this is quick. Though, I have visual impairment since grade school so I assumed that this throbbing, sometimes pulsating pain I’m experiencing for couple of years now is due to advance mild to severe vision loss. But the pain lasts only for 30 minutes for two to three times a week before then dwindles when I get enough sleep and new corrected lenses. But this year it caught my attention because the attacks were progressing, start as a typical dull headache and get worse within minutes to hours (6 hours), the pain is excruciating and piercing down to my ears and jaws “imagine that” and all the signs and symptoms mentioned above especially this “temporary blind spot” that last for about half an hour, a strange sensation and is pretty intense after extreme work out or simply climbing stairs.
Last Monday due to horrible pain they rush me to Emergency room and injected Diclofenac Sodium. The GP’s principal diagnosis is CLASSIC MIGRAINE.
Read this: People with classic migraines experience an aura before their headaches. Most often, an aura is a visual disturbance (outlines of lights or jagged light images). Classic migraines are usually much more severe than common migraines. 
 Have you had your eyes checked lately or do you get migraines? Has anything different been going on? Stress can also do funny things to you or I might say serious things to you. I hope this helped you try and figure out what’s going on. If it doesn't clear up I would definitely go and see a doctor.

Pray for smooth recovery. God Bless us all <3


Wednesday, July 18, 2012

Noticing me

I’m singing and now I am so nervous, anxious, concerned or whatever word to describe, name it. It’s not because about holding microphone, facing public… but it’s the anxiety that this time it will not happen again. I hate changes! Well no choice it’s inevitable.

Monday, July 16, 2012


I have lot of things in my mind and emotions deep within..but I cant...I just cant...oh sighs :( sappy day

Saturday, July 14, 2012

Message From My Heart

Message From My Heart

I don't work for free, please take care of me...

I'm currently listening to this song and caught up with that line and (smile sweetly while clicking new post) yes! Blogging while working in the office, the price you get when you don't have pending and lots of work... Lucky-bee :) well I promise to myself not to write any without finalizing and completing my blog site but I can't help it, so please bear with me this is temporary.

Us girls, let's admit it that we are emotional, I mean for me small things matters, but it's different from this making big issues of minor issues of disagreement really. (Hands up! I will not argue)
Like this for example “Yes! I promise the moment I will reach home, I will inform you" and then you waited like light years but receive nothing. Oh and oh... 
For all of you to understand and feel more...sing with me.

Don't break me, I bruise easily
The source of both your love and misery

I am steady, beating endlessly
While you are dozing, dreaming pretty things
Lovely things

I don't work for free
Please take care of me

This is a message from your heart
Your most devoted body part
Taking blood and making art
This is a message from your heart
Pounding away into the dark
You could thank me for a start
This is a message from your heart

Don't hurt me, I bleed constantly
My efforts leave me but flow back swiftly
My rhythm, soothing, like raindrops steady

On foggy windows when you gaze outwardly

I don't work for free
Please take care of me
Please take care of me

This is a message from your heart
Your most devoted body part
Taking blood and making art
This is a message from your heart
Pounding away into the dark
You could thank me for a start
This is a message from your heart

Everytime you sleep
Everytime you eat
Everytime you laugh
 you cry
Every time you love

This is a message from your heart
Your most devoted body part
Taking blood and making art
This is a message from your heart
Pounding away into the dark
You could thank me for a start
This is a message from your heart

Thank you Kina for this beautiful song...


I'm having this issue with food lately. I just can't eat much. It's weird. My eyes are way more hungry that what the rest of me is and I feel bad for wasting food. My girlfriend made this really great spaghetti last night, and every time I've gone to eat it I've only been able to eat half of what I dish for myself, less than even. And I can't do anything with it now because it's been reheated so it'll just go in the bin and that makes me feel bad. And I'm going to say this knowing that I'll hear about how silly it is in about half an hour when I finish this and someone reads it. But what the hell. It's probably a good thing anyway. I eat so much crap, and I definitely have lately with all the whirlwind trips and eating out and eating take out. And I feel fat. There, I said it. Not fat fat because I know that that's crazy. I guess I just feel yuk and unhealthy, and basically just like a normal girl. Cue **** telling me that I'm not fat, whatever just the way I am, but sometimes I just don't feel it, and now is one of those times. I want to kick my ass into gear and get fit and get rid of the pudgy little tummy and tone it all up and all that. So I guess what I'm saying is that I should embrace the not having a very big appetite. But then again, I should also stop eating a whole lot of crap, because that's what's happening. Yes, says I who has an open can of Coke and an empty packet of salt and vinegar chips lying around. Ugh, why does bad food have to taste so damn good?


Can you see me? My stride has you paralyzed, I know. I am your mystery. You can never have a piece of me. The way I collide into the shadows, the way my swagger goes from one to another. I am your chameleon, the diva in your masquerade.
Run from me if you must. I know I'm a little much. My words caress your soul and wrap around your mind. I leave you restless with the moonshine, believe me I realize this. I cast spells upon spells, sinking deeper into your veins... Can't you feel me pulse?My voice smooth and suculent, sultry and distinct. I whisper for you in your sleep. Can you hear me hum your name?My eyes are dark and deep. Written pages couldn't even tell you the things I have seen. I know you wish you knew me. A fantasy most people dare to dream, but I'm sorry... You can just take a seat right there.There is fury in me. I burn at the roots. I can engulf you, please you and set you free. I can be your addiction. A sweet fixation. I can give you all of everything you need. Let me be your air. Let me be your thoughts. I want to mold you into my own. Can you feel me slide into you?I am concentrated on more than you. I'm involved in everything you do. What fun is a game with no cat and mouse play? With my passions seeping into your core, I just smile with my avengence untold. Can you feel my rapture?I bet you think you know me. You get the sly in my character. The boost in my esteem. But what you will never know, is that I am always unseen.


I wish I could say I was feeling better, but I'm not.

I feel like a jerk, I have a lot of things and I am safe and I'm lucky I have a pretty secure LIFE. But when you don't feel like you have friends and family that love you, then what do you have??

I really have no right to complain about my life. But is so frustrating to feel awful and not be able to do anything about the things in my life that suck right now.

I feel like I'm constantly waiting. I'm waiting for beginning to get here.Waiting for things to get better, waiting for someone to call..

I'm still foolishly checking my phone to see if he calls. I don't know why. I don't want to be with him anymore. But I did develop a closeness and some what of a dependency on our connection that its hard to let that go. Especially when I have nothing to replace it.

It feels a little bit like the world is going to hell in a hand basket and there's nothing that I can do to make it any better. Not even my own small part of it.

Her Story

She would laugh but would not think it funny. She would smile but feel no joy or happiness. She merely exists. She is a little lost girl in a world that is huge and cruel. Sorrow, Pain, and Worthlessness are her constant companions. She ran away from them once before, and was rid of them for sometime. During that time she saw blue skies, had emotions like that of a human, and learned to love again. But then one day she tasted bitterness with the death of a beloved friend. She went to the wake and was found by Sorrow, Pain, and Worthlessness. They left with her and came home with her and have not left her alone since. This girl is trying to fight them off, but she is too overwhelmed. And she does not remember how she got away from them in the first place. So now this girl sits out in the cold rain with the blanket of gloom covering the sky, as the winds of misery cut right through her. This girl searches for the once warm joy filled memory, but it is how cold and fading ever so quickly. With the passing of time, the girl becomes slower with what seems like hundreds of years. Ancient is the all she knows how to feel with the knowledge that she is not as old as she feels. Or, she wonders- Is this what hell is like? So she will continue on and will exist with no question as to when her end is near.